I have no idea how you have seen my paintings, sculptures or even photographs. I have never felt that I have accolmplished anything special with a camera and I have said as much on numerous occasions. However if you wish to judge my paintings and sculptures call me. You are welcome to visit my home and have a look.
I am not yet satisfied with my art and I do not yet feel I know what it is I wish to say with art. I have indeed spent my whole life pondering this and perhaps it will come to me.
I do not really believe in the portable paintings on canvas that the Flemish brought to the world as it has reduced artists to people who's lives are controlled/dependent on art galleries. I have endevored to become a Fresco Mural wallvpainter and in this way I would, and all the other Mural painters would be dealing with the client directly and in this way I believe they would prosper.
You can laugh, but as a 5 year old I had an exhibition in the first grade in a Manhattan school. They sat me down and sat all around me and asked me questions for about 15 min when they were done I was told that a mind like mine comes along only every several hundred years and that they thought I could save the world through my art. They told me that around thirty I may find myself starving but asked me not to give up. Well I did starve at around thirty and I became sick and did need medical help.
Now I'm sixty years old and I have still not given up with what I was asked to do. At this point I think they should never have spoken to a 5 year old as they did and that they perhaps should not have charged me to save the world. But it's a moot point. I have been working on an artistic solution that would inspire humanity to never give up the struggle for existance no matter how difficult life may be at times. That's it. this is all I have. This has been my feeling and what it is I want to say. But it does not lend itself to painting and sculpture that easily. I have not yet come up with a satisfactory painting. I actually look at all my work as nothing more than efforts in keeping my skills honed. The mind is really what is my real tool and so far I am not able to paint what I feel. I have hoped since around age 32 when I was starving that perhaos experience gained through life would benifit me. I still think this, but now I wander how effective I would be at age 60 climbing a scaffold and exicuting a large wall painting. I do not need many, just a few good paintings in public buildings to be viewed as long as the building remains.
One idea I have is a painting of a near by river showing the lushness of life. In the river a modern boy meets a young indian boy from 500 years ago. In this moment, they can each see the world of the other. One is clean and full of healthy life, the other is polluted and overun as a sort of cesspool for the all to succesfull modern technolgical world that I am part of.
That's it, I'm not concerned in anyway about artistic merits of such a painting , I am only concernde about the message. This is the hard part for me. I hope I have the courage to do this mural, I feel we need it.
But that is the extent of me as an artist. I do not care now and almost never have cared about museams, art shows, money or fame. I just wish to keep my word to these artistic people with whom I spoke at an art exhibition back in 1955. BTW, I was already thinlking about being an artist before this event. But then I wanted money and fame and a lot of villas in many countries to travel to and do my art when and where I wanted and to have many woman lovers. This all changed, and now I only wish to get out enough good work to make a difference and show people we need to respect the environment.
Perhaps you think I'm an idiot, or a misled person. But it is my choice to dedicate myself to art and saving the world. Even if at age 60 I have not yet reached the place I need to be. I have not given up, anyway nothing I do will hurt you. That's even if I actually get a few murals up and they are valid.
I think there are enough other artists who are not like me to fill the world up with their paintings and sulptures. Just like there are many photographers.
I'm me and that's that. I play many wooden accustic instruments from guitar, violin, viola, sitar, oud, rabab, sarod, sarangi and erhu. I do not do this for money I do it to understand the different musical languages of the world. I hope this will broaden my own understanding of life.
Man, you are thick. Stop your blabbing about real photography and real photographer. Low iso, high iso, analog, digital, Leica or Nikon, it doesn't matter, what counts is the impact your picture have on you.
As for being an artist since forever, I have yet to find any interest in your pictures, film or not. I don't think that being an artist is a warrant of any talent.
I am getting tired of the utter nonsense that I read in those forum especially from people like you.
