Your pictures wont have any character if you dont have any

I didn't know the picture was for me, it just never occurred to me.
We were having a bbq for the kids, they have made the most ridiculous battle armour out of cardboard and one had even made a colt 45 from it. Was crazy fun. I had just put the coals on to heat and I've come inside to escape the smoke. My PC is already on and realize what he has said, ...that the picture was for me. My earlier thought was crap but I also thought that it wasn't a good message for any of our disabled photographers and certainly no good for the kids that are learning to think that its ok to take disabled pics. I had no idea the pic was for me.

Fad has one of these, I though he had spoken to the guy but I was mistaken and disappointed...
http://forums.dpreview.com/forums/post/42554167

I didn't want to think about the photographer, he had ample time to talk to the boy but "its not my style" he tell us. It was going to be a better experience to think about the boy instead.
I dont know what this stunning looking boy had planned for the day but for all of it he would have been thinking about the photographer that snapped him. He would have thought about girls but then he would have thought about the photographer that snapped him. Maybe he had a group of kids staring at him just a few minutes earlier or a few minutes later. All this attention and he doesn't feel famous.
So fad got his picture ...awesome, now fad can be famous.

In my first week of street photography I took a picture of an obese girl. She was all made up but alone so it was pretty obvious that she was looking for a mate. She looked ready for church (grin).

I looked at the pic on the camera monitor after I took it and realized what I'd done and deleted it straight away but couldn't get what I'd done out of my head for the whole week.

It took a second to show on my face. I knew it was in shock and I dont mean the kind when you are surprised. The blood really does leave your face, you can feel how heavy your flesh is.
I gave qualification as a disabled person as explanation that the complaint was real still not understanding that the picture was for me, a gift.

For everything I've seen I could never think it possible that someone would ever do something like this so of course it was just pure chance that both the subject and I have lost a leg. I'm well aware too that many of you are not so bright, it shows in your pictures you know. But I never had a concept of how low someone could go, which is odd because your pictures are so cowardly. You take them at distance you take them from the hip and you hide and I thought it was because you used it as technique never guessing that you do it because you are cowards.

I wrote that up-skirt thread recently, I was appalled but you didn't seem to be. It was even a chance for some of you to have a good perv. I thought about emailing some female friends and even a very well known one in the media to see what you do i the street. I didn't even know what milf meant until a week ago. The bit that repulsed me more though was that you are the ones that let it happen, but thats what cowards do.

I didn't think that I knew any, but it turns out that I know many. Of course there are a few exceptions but they are few and I dont need to name the brave but trust me it would be a lot less typing then if I was to name the rest of you.

Everyone here thought that they had said something. They were laughing and jumping about and I must have looked something worth a photo because everyone stopped. Lyn rushed over and asked me whats wrong and I'd already turned away from the screen, I couldn't let her see the picture, thats not how she sees me.

So what do I do now. I honestly don't know. I dont like any of you anymore, not one of you came to help when you likely knew what was going on before I did.

Jake had gone back to his room and Lyn helped me to bed but I couldn't lie there, the bbq was left to burn out and the kids had pizza instead and I couldn't sleep and got up again because I had to watch the pc for any replies. Any minute someone else will say how wrong it was but no one did.

I expect that admin will delete this and likely delete my account. Its a shame if they do because it should be available to anyone that is bullied on this forum but as Hexar said ...its not what he signed up for and yet its exactly as I said, that its his character and that it shows in his pictures and he cannot help himself. He is the author and thats what he is and thats what he sees ...simple as that and unavoidable and thats how easy it is to see you in your pictures.

So to keep this as a lesson in street photography. Your pictures wont have any character if you dont have any, instead all they will show is what you really look like.

I dont have any face left, its been scratched off. I loved it here on dpr and its obvious I cant be here anymore. Hilarious really, I'm the one that got called disabled, on drugs and mentally disabled and yet I'm the one that has to go.
I don't fell sorry for myself, dont mistake my words. Its your photos that I fell the greatest regret for ...that they lack any character.

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